greenlaugher

In 8th grade I proclaimed that you are my soulmate. Over the past years it seems only to become more true. Last year we acted like a couple in love, after having been separated for two years. But it only lasted that one night because.. well because I had a boyfriend. I was so angry with you, but only because you made the unconscious feelings about my boyfriend conscious. That I realized how wrong we were for each other, so I sought out to you in desperation. Almost pleaded for you to be with me. I was so.. desperate. To get out of my relationship. I broke up with my boyfriend, and but you behind me. Being young, foolish and scared I got back

Nine weeks ago I lost my boyfriend through three years. It has been tough, and I think of him a lot. I know that being apart is the right thing for us, but it doesn't change that have loved him for so long, and that he has been a very big part of my life. The thing that has helped me most through this so far is that he was the one who broke up. When, last summer, I broke up with him so spare his feelings, it tore me apart. Seeing him so sad and broken, my heart could not take it. This feeling I do not have know, and it has allowed me to not feeling guilty, the worst thing is to break someone's heart. Now that I am doing better (actually sl

Yet again I'm his, and it feels.. wonderful! :D There are still loads of problems we have to work out, but it will all be alright! I love him so much, and I am just so sosososososoooooo Happy!!! :D<3 This feels so natural, so.. right. I will enjoy now, and not ponder about the future, because what does the future mean now? I will be let myself be happy! :D